I love underground hiphop. I love the beats and the attitude.. I just don't like the need to front all the time. I'm not from the ghetto and I'm not that badass. So this was my "keepin it real" track. It begins with a sample of my eldest son, Darwin, wandering into the studio while I'm recording the vocal dubs.

Note: it was recorded while I was still married with three children. Now I'm divorced with four, and have modified some of the lyrics ;)

Released by: Splendid Imaginings 
Release/catalogue number: SPLENDID002 
Release date: Oct 21, 2008 
ISRC: DE-BL6-08-10337

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- [] Lyrics :

I'm not a gangster and I don't wanna be one. 
Love my life, love my daughters and my two sons, 
And I love mad breaks when I'm chillin, 
Just don't wanna hear all that rappin bout the killin. 
Don't wanna own fast cars with big systems - 
- the things that you own end up owning you in the end.. 
.. and I can still feel like a man bustin rhymes while I'm rollin in my Dodge minivan.

So I drop the bassline 
I'm loving the beats singin from my machines 
Now I'm livin the dream, 
Digital cream -- what does that mean? 
But I'd rather be obscure than rap about women like they are whores 
Coz my sister my mother, my wife and my daughter 
Expect from me so much more...

I'm not a gangster and I don't wanna be one 
I just wanna make phat beats in the sun. 
I'm not a player unless you're talkin keyboards 
Or drums and guitars and records and xbox 
Never shot no one, 'cept on my TV 
and the controller in my hand was my gat, 
But not really. 
Never taken part in a gang beating 
Let karma kick their ass and then maybe they'll be leavin. 
Always broke, but I'm not from the ghetto.. 
.. twice offered crack, but I'm smart so I said "hell no," 
Though I admit I touched the jib quite a little bit 
And I've smoked pounds of chron and I chain smoke cigarettes 
But no regrets 
I made it here and I think that here is the best...

I'm not a rock star and I don't wanna be one 
I got my mic, and my axe, but it's just for fun. 
Don't wanna shag backstage with some groupies 
My wife is hot, and she knows just how to do me. 
Don't wanna trash hotel rooms in vegas. 
I don't wanna do fat lines off some chick's ass 
Don't wanna see my face in the tabloids - 
- that shit's a waste of time, man I'd rather get hemmoroids.

But I do what to conqueor 
the keepers of the gates 
the jackals and the leeches off those who create 
the beats and the rhymes 
coz this is OUR time 
when the independents get to shine..

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